Hello, and welcome to Born Again. My name is Denis Muriungi, and I am a proud citizen of Kenya. I created this blog to share my personal journey—one that has been marked by deep struggles, transformative lessons, and the incredible faithfulness of God.
For nine years of my life, I was trapped in an addiction that controlled me. Pornography had a grip on me, and I found myself consumed by strong lustful desires toward women. It started as something small—something I thought I could control. But over time, it spiraled into a cycle of indulgence and regret that I couldn’t escape.
Whenever I watched pornography, I felt an urge that wouldn’t let me rest. I would visit escort websites, searching for women in my area, and I would pay for their services to satisfy my desires. I didn’t care much about their age or who they were—some of them were even older than me. It didn’t matter. All I cared about was feeding the lust that had taken over my life.
But every time, after giving in to temptation, I felt empty, ashamed, and deeply broken. I hated myself for what I was doing, and yet, I couldn’t stop. It became a burden that I carried every day, and though I desperately wanted to change, I couldn’t find the strength to do it.
For years, I prayed to God for help. I cried out to Him, begging for deliverance from this addiction. I wanted to be free, but it felt like my prayers were going unanswered. I would pray one moment, and in the next, I would find myself back in the same cycle of sin.
Then came December 2023—the month that changed everything. It was the end of my last semester at university. I was on my way home, but as usual, I stopped in a small city along the way. I don’t know why, but this had become a habit for me. Every time I passed through that city, I felt drawn to the same behaviors—to look for escorts and give in to temptation.
That day, something was different. Before I acted on my urges, I stopped and asked myself, Why am I doing this? Why do I keep falling into the same trap? Why don’t I change? These questions weighed heavily on me. I felt exhausted—tired of the life I was living and the chains I couldn’t seem to break.
I decided to pray. I asked God to help me, to give me the strength to resist temptation, and to help me abandon this sinful behavior. But even after praying, the pull of addiction was too strong. I found myself giving in again.
I called an escort and invited her to the room I had booked. She came, and we had sex. Afterward, I fell asleep. At that moment, I thought everything was the same as always—that I would wake up with the same guilt, the same shame, and the same regret. But what happened next changed my life forever.
I was woken up by a scream. The woman I had been with was on top of me, shouting uncontrollably. I looked down and realized that my leg was bleeding—she had cut me. She was acting like someone possessed, shouting for me to leave her alone. It was as if she had lost her mind.
In that terrifying moment, I realized that God had intervened. What could have been my worst night turned into a moment of salvation. God had protected me from harm, and He had opened my eyes to the danger I was putting myself in.
That night, as I sat alone, bleeding and shaken, I understood something I hadn’t before: God hears our prayers, even when we feel like we’re at our worst. He is always there, ready to help us, even when we don’t deserve it.
Since that day, my life has never been the same. I made the decision to change—to let go of the addiction that had controlled me for so long and to live a life that honors God. It hasn’t been easy, but God has been faithful every step of the way.
I created Born Again to share my journey and to remind others that no one is too far gone for God’s love and grace. Through this blog, I’ll share my experiences, the lessons I’ve learned, and the ways God has worked in my life. I want this to be a space where people can find encouragement, hope, and the reminder that God is always ready to meet us where we are.
If you’re struggling with addiction, sin, or any kind of burden, I want you to know this: there is hope. Turn to God, pray, and trust that He hears you. He is faithful to help, and He can turn even the darkest moments into a testimony of His goodness.
Thank you for reading my story, and I pray that it inspires you to seek God in all things. Together, let’s grow in faith and walk the path of righteousness.
Blessings,
Denis Muriungi
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